Self cannot put “self” on the Cross: only the Holy Spirit can do this, and He does this through the cross of Jesus Christ. If the death of the Lord Jesus is real to you, were you not IN Him at Calvary? It is not weeping for the death 2000 years ago, but in the utter surrender to death. We ought never try to express Calvary in mere words, nor ask the question “were you there when they crucified my Lord?”. It is ONLY by revelation, and then that revelation must become an in-wrought reality for it to be experienced and preached (lived)!